2-21/15

my fiancés uncle is in hospice for lung cancer.  Cancer runs through my entire family and we've had many deaths. 

It hurts me to the point of shutdown to see my fiancé in pain. His uncle has lung cancer and is now on hospice. I know what that means from multiple family members but this is first. 

Valentine's Day 2015

it's Valentine's Day and the day I thought he would just text "happy Valentine's Day," that's all. never did but he texted me happy anniversary on January 29th which meant the world to me. he could have least have been a friend and responded. anything. I'm here alone, unloved and nothing like always. 

I've tried, tried and tried again. I don't see what my purpose is. I love with everything I have after everything I've been through and it's still not good enough. I shouldn't be here or the man I love would love me. He's the father of my kids and my backbone : I love you Alan Andrew forever and always xoxo

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